"now here it comes, the hardest part of all.. unchain my heart that's holding on..."

>found my black notebook today.. and i saw some messages from John..
who's he? i guess.. i can call him my childhood friend. :) we've known each other since grade school and up to now, we're STILL good friends. our life "together" is a crazy one.. hah! if i we're to tell you our whole story, aabutin tayo ng isang buong araw. =p anyhoo, he's really special. special in a way that i could tell anything and everything to him. from corny stuff's to yucky stuff's.. more like a bestfriend but *sigh i don't know... MOVING ON, here are some of his messages.

M1: ok lang yan... ako tutulog na eh, nasobrahan sa basketball tas kulang sa tulog.. kya sobrang drained nko eh.. cge, goodnight! mag hugas k muna dyan! Ü love you! Ü 24June03
M2: loko k ah.. bath daw muna. Ü ikaw yun eh. Ü cge, goodnight! Ü love you! Ü 05July03
M3: nangungulit lng. cge, 2log k n.. gnight! love you! ÜÜ
- any comments? haha. as you can see.. taong 2003 pa yan pero nakatago parin yang message na yan. :) haay ewan ko ba. bat bigla ko naisip na isulat to.. gusto ko lang siguro ikwento para maalis na sa isipan ko.. :(
so, he did say that he loved me.. but in what way? as a friend? as a buddy? or as something else? whatever it is.. it felt nice hearing those words coming from him. buttt.. i can't fool myself, we're still young.. TOO young to be inlove..

he was everything to me. i know, i sound lame but it's true. my world did revolve around him. he was also one of the reasons why i took an exam in manila doctor's college.. he was.. yeah.. yeah.. he was. but then he's gone. pffft...

tsk, tsk.. drama drama. :)

i have 8 songs that WILL keep on reminding me about John.
1. one last breath
2. stay
3. get me
4. tears in heaven
5. drop it like it's hot (haha!)
6. candy shop
7. tell me where it hurts
8. we belong together

diyan nagtatapos ang aking "random thought" although kulang kulang pa yan. :)